I watched as my daughter danced around the room. She was completely in a world where no one else existed. If she had noticed me, the moment would have ended. For a brief second, time stood absolutely still.
I felt tears trickling down my checks. Where has the time gone? Wasn’t she just a baby? Didn’t the doctor just yesterday raise her up over the curtain for me to see? When did she become such a little person? Am I raising her right?
As I watched her dance, I marveled at her innocent beauty, and I wondered if I had done enough so far. Have I instilled in her the importance of love? Has she learned to look for the good in all persons? Does she have compassion and empathy? Will she grow up to know the meaning of true joy? Who will she become, and am I giving her all she needs?
As she spinned and twirled, I wondered if this is how God feels. Does God marvel at us? Does he hold his breath and wonder if we will get it right? If we will see the good in others and act when others are in pain? Does God smile when we are happy and cry when we are hurting? Does he struggle when we make bad decisions and hurt others? Does he rejoice when we find joy and cheer when we have a big moment? Does God feel joy and frustration over things we do? Does God wonder who we will ultimately become?
I do not have the answers to any of these questions, but I do like to think God is watching me when I dance – even when I think no one else is looking.
Donna Purdy
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